彻底绝望

今天，我真的感到很绝望了。
早上，跟他冷战。

他说，喜欢我的单纯。
反而现在我感觉，
我的单纯受到侮辱。
老实说，
我对他有点失望，
有点伤感，
有点后悔……
为什么总是要把我当成10岁小孩般看待？
我像10岁吗？
有谁能告诉我？
作弄我，
是无限的吗？
我的尊严也是无限的吗？
那我还算得了什么？
跟一撮大便有什么分别？
有什么分别？

你们都知道被侮辱的感觉是怎样的吗？
你们懂吗？
你们了解吗？

我希望有人能了解我现在的心情……

※今天，突然想起一样很搞笑的事情，就应该是，新年时期吧，刚好家里附近的市区有Fun Fair，有一个晚上我们全部都去走走看看。也有玩些游戏，赢了些些的玩具。刚好有一个是他妈妈赢到的，然后我就去开来看，是一个小盒子。我看到好像很有趣似的，就去开来看。然后，他就问我，“你没有玩过咩？”我说，没有，可以拿来放东西哦！结果，我就把盒子的抽屉来出来，结果蟑螂跑出来，吓死我，他们全部都在笑，我还以为是小抽屉，可以放东西，原来是恶作剧。那时，我还吓到哭，真的还是第一次呢！他在旁边抚摸我的头，结果还说我是笨蛋！死鬼！！真的很搞笑。

※很期待14/5的到来，因为是我们的一周年纪念。听他说，他好像outstation。。。当然我希望他没有啦，想要和他好好享用晚餐。哈哈。我打算送他香水和车的radio，加上一个星期后又是他的生日，想要一次过送。

Well.. Im get back to my work now after enjoyed holiday for 4 days in Johor.. Reli enjoyed cz all the time almost spent on SLEEPING.... It's long time I did not rest as well...

I met Xiao Theng at City Square JB - one of my new fren which I knew her last year during Pikom Pc Fair at the same place - Persada Mall.. I didn't met Paula yet since she was busy with her mum last Sunday but she promised will meet another day.. I didn't joint the pc fair for the days where i was being at JB, so how i gonna spent my time just window shopping at CS.. I was alone.. All the shop i entered, to spend my time.. haha.. Until afternoon, i felt tired and sleepy i back to hotel... SLEEPing... Great.. Long time didn't take a nap at afternoon.. hoho..

14th is coming again... It's my anniversary with my dear... Next month 14th gonna be our 1yr anniversary.. Im thinking what to give him.. Wallet? Perfume? Shirt? Shoe? Bag? ya.. Almost forgot that his favourite is NIKON D3100... RM2198.00. OMG... I wish i have enough of money to give him the DSLR camera.. But i did not... Well, think to other way.. He dont wish i waste too much of money to buy nonsense thing.. I think i just make a video for him is enough.. Simple...